" They say it's what you make
I say it's up to fate "
the girl you see in the side lines. that never seems to exactly be there. but is always lost in another word. yet her body is clearly there. but her eyes say something different. her eyes are left foggy meaning her mind is off in the distance thinking about something that you can't understand. but only her eyes know and only her mind can comprehend.
she is different. a lot different. people worry about her. they all say she needs to get out more. but she says something different. she wants to be alone more than anything. well that's what her lips say. but her heart screams something different. she wants love. she wants the feeling of being in love. she wants someone who understand. someone who cares.
this girl has never been in a relationship. never. she never wanted to and no one ever rushed her. she always said she wanted to find the person she loved before she risked a heartbreak. that was always her worst fear. heartbreak. she hated seeing other people heartbroken and knew she wouldn't be able to heal a broken heart. so she simply stayed away from relationships to keep her heart safe from harm. although at one point she questioned why people fall in love. she always saw that when people fall in love they get hurt. and broken. so she questioned this and tried to say she would never fall in love. yet others told her just to wait her turn. saying her time would come for her to fall in love and that special someone would be there just in time. but she doubted it. she questioned everything they said. this love stuff. was not her thing.
" It's woven in my soul
I need to let you go "
this girl who questions the whole love thing in the first place is oddly named rose. everyone knows the rose stands for love. a flower given to someone by their lover. so she is set up for love. yet she shies away in fear of a broken heart. the full name of this girl is rose elizabeth parker. a somewhat common name for a not so common girl. some other basic information about dear rose she is at the age of seventeen and a half. her birthday is rounding the corner quite quickly. and shall i mention it is january 28th. rose comes in to stand at the tiny height of 5'3 and a half. a very tiny height. she is very pale. her skin is like fine china. clear and smooth with the dusting of freckles over her nose and cheekbones. something that really stands out about rose is her eyes. they are a mystical grey. with faint streaks of black marking little lines to her pupil. very stunning to an onlooker.
now something that does cause a little pride to feel her chest is her hair. long and elegant. it is a light blonde color and it is in usually messy tiny waves. and falls just past the middle of her back. something that she has found to love about herself. one thing though she sees as a downfall about herself is her build. she has a thin build with long arms and legs, that are both very thin. she has narrow hips. nothing exciting or amazing that she thinks any boy would want.
family? well from her family rose is set up to fail with love. her parents are divorced. they divorced when she was around seven. and she has not seen her father since then. but she has two older brothers. conner and cole. they are really the two people that matter most in her life. because her mother is usually working around the clock. and has missed practically rose's whole childhood.
" Your eyes, they shine so bright
I want to save their light "
a yawn caused her lips to part. her eyes still closed tight from sleep lurking in her body. her warm breath met with the cold air of her room causing a shiver to dance down her spine. tugging her eyes open. her grey orbs met her room with a vacant stare. blinking her eyes a few times to free the sleep still making her gaze hazy. her dark eyelashes fluttered in response of her opening and closing her eyes. bringing her hands together under the blankets she huddled in she laced her fingers together. pressing down her fingers popped quietly. causing a happy sigh to filter from her puckered lips. unlacing her fingers she used both her hands to shove the blankets off her thin body. pushing them down to the end of her bed. slowly pushing herself up off the mattress she swung her legs to the side. her bare feet met the wooden floor with a welcoming clap. yet the wood floor felt like ice over the pavement. shivering slightly she stood slowly. making sure to hold her balance after a good night's sleep. once finding her footing, she took a step.
walking over across her room she pulled her grey eyes across the pastel colored room. rose's gaze flickered over the objects in her room before falling over a window on the side. with a tiny smile tugging at the corners of her lips she pushed it away regretfully. walking over towards the window slowly, sleep dragged in her slow movements. she didn't have to get up this early on a cool spring saturday. but she always woke up early. it was like a alarm clock was stuck in her body causing her to wake up. nearing the window she looked up. the wonderful new sun sprinkling little light into her sparkling grey eyes. pressing close to the window she could feel the chill of the morning air just through the glass. then slowly lifting a delicate hand she pressed it to the glass. the chill send a delighted shiver through her skin. waking her still sleeping body. with a sigh falling from her puckered lips. her eyes stared vacantly through the clear glass. and then she pushed away. quickly turning on her heel and facing the opposite direction.
" I can't escape this now
Unless you show me how "
walking across her room she came to the door. reaching out she twist the knob with a flick of her wrist and then tugged it open. slipping out into the hallway. she knew her mother most likely would already be at work and her brothers would be still sound asleep down the hall in their bedrooms. slipping into the hallway she glanced down each ends. seeing nothing as she hoped for she carefully tip toed across the hallway and into the bathroom across the hall. once in the bathroom she turned and locked the door behind herself. and then turned to the shower. turning the knobs she let the water pour from the shower head. beginning at a very cold tempature. stepping away she peeled her clothes from her body and then strode across back over the the shower. reaching a hand out under the cascading water it was now a nice warm tempature. and with a little nod she slipped in under the running water.
with a little click the water stopped running. pulling back the curtain she reached out a hand and grasped the toweling hanging from the side of the shower. pulling it in she dried her hair and then her body. stepping out onto a little rug she wrapped the towel around herself. walking through the bathroom she gripped the towel in one hand and unlocked the door with the other. pulling it open cold air shot at her bare skin. and a little shiver pulled across her body causing small goosebumps to appear over her skin. walking shiftly across the hallway she quickly escaped into her room. closing the door behind her with a little click. with a sigh she walked over to a small desk she had for doing her hair and make up. she stopped and sat down on the little bench. pulling out her hairdryer she began with that first. dying her hair. her hair came out puffy with waves melted into it. digging around in a drawer she pulled out her brush and combed through her hair with ease. causing the puffiness to flatten and she was left with relaxed waves through out her hair now. it looked nice and it was good for her now.
now setting out some make up she moved her hand around a few things. and decided to skip foundation today. because the foundation covered up her freckles and she kinda liked them some days. and today she was in one kind of mood that she wanted her freckles noticeable. picking up her black eye liner she went to putting it on. only on the top and creating a wing on both eyes. with a sigh falling from her lips she curled her eye lashes and then applied a layer or two of mascara to her lashes. causing her grey eyes to scream out. and directing almost everyone's attention straight to her eyes now.
pushing herself up from the little stool she walked over to her closet. reaching inside she pulled out a pair of tight skinny jeans. and then a loose top with an infinity sign across the chest. dropping the towel rose pulled on the clothes gratefully. once on she looked down at herself and nodded in approval. the skinny jeans hugged her thin legs nicely and the loose top hung over her top half. yet it showed the skin above her jeans and her hip bones were rather noticeable. turning she walked over and found her royal blue vans. tugging them on her feet she then slid across her room to her dresser. in the top drawer was her hats. pulling out a black beanie she pulled it on her head. fixing it til it looked normal and somewhat nice. with that she grabbed her phone off her bed and slipped it into her back pocket. next she was headed out the door.
" When you feel my heat
Look into my eyes "
entering the hallway she gave a little sigh through her lips and turned. coming to a set a stairs down to the first floor of the house she trotted down them. her shoes clicking as they connected with each step. once at the bottom she gave a glance around the living room with lazy eyes until they rested on a woman in the kitchen. her mother. stopping in her tracks her eyes widened slightly as she raised her hand in a little wave towards her mother. and her mother glanced up with matching grey eyes and nodded to her questionly. " rose, honey, where are you off to today " she asked softly in a voice like a melody. with a little tilt of her head rose answered, " i'm off to the coffee shop just in town and then maybe do a little shopping " rose's voice had the same song singing voice like her mother. and yet they looked a lot alike. but nothing in their personalities made them a like. they were total different people. and that was the way rose wanted it.
walking towards the front door she didn't look back at her mother just continued on her way. opening the door she slipped outside shutting it behind her. once out in the cool air she glanced around. she could see the coffee shop from her house. starting down the sidewalk she came to the coffee shop in what seemed like no time. pulling open the little glass door a bell jingled in a welcoming. glancing around inside when she was fulling engulfed in the warmth of th store. her eyes flickered over the people inside. only a few others. and mostly were older couples sitting together sipping over coffee. walking up to the counter rose looked up at the young man working the counter. he was about her age and she guessed he went to school with her. giving a nod to him he knew exactly what sher wanted from the many times rose had came here in the past. a warm tea with one mint leaf. a sigh escaped her pale lips as she payed and turned.
walking over to a booth near a window she sat down as the old booth squeaked under her light weight. looking up with her foggy grey eyes as the young man brought her tea. gladly taking it between both of her hands she took a sip from the mug. swallowing the sweet warm liquid. she let a tiny smile pulled across her lips. then lowering the drink to the table i clicked as she set it down. then suddenly the bell jingled again signally someone was entering. raising her gaze slowly to the door she saw another young woman enter. someone she had never seen before. and yet something moved within her. rose tilted her head slightly. watching him for a moment. before realizing she was staring and she adverted her gaze. looking away she glanced down at the mug of tea before her. yet some how she found herself looking back towards the female.
please play a female, that is interested in rose. and is certain about her sexuality being lesbian!!! and she can either be sweet, forceful, anything you want! but please play a female! thank you, lovely!
" It's where my demons hide "