”Its not like I’m always like this…”
Ermph, don't really know how to start off as the first idea kinda back fried...Finally posting guys XD lol, so I shall make Cloud go ladadada walking, idk where the patrol is, so help me out along the way pwease? <3 I know patrols are busy with Flora so Cloud shall wait at go watch butterflies or something in her spare time :3
My heart was still beating, probably faster than I thought possible without exploding inside me. No matter, the rush of adrenaline just made me push harder and faster, and the closest to fear I ever got coursing through my veins and pounding into my heart, which was probably why it was beating so fast. I was still running, from what I couldn't describe as an animal. But if it was a animal, it was the beast within. Because I couldn't escape it, and it wouldn't leave me alone.
A moon ago I had escaped a forest fire, which I had been in with my idioitc loner group. Nice to say, I was happy to leave them. A bunch of idiots making excuses and commands, and hitting up on squirrles. It was painful to watch. But hey, I needed a home, and they gladly gave me one. There were some nice cats in there, ones that didn't smell of rotten meat, and were kind to me. But, I don't know what happened. Something took over me, like an urge, something that, I kind of liked, yet I couldn't name. It scared me, and that's why I was running now. The forest fire was how I left the group, and I'm on my own again. With a burnt paw of course, I wasn't that lucky. But I escaped the feelings, that scared me more than the flames of death. But I'm sure those feelings would return, they always did.
They seemed to haunt me, lingering in my mind, feeding off every action that crossed my path. The thoughts swirled in my head, causing me to finally stop and take large gulps of air. I couldn't out run what was in my own mind. Why try? So I gave up, just sitting there in a place I didn't know what it was called. I had stopped in what appeared to be a long field, of tall grass and it seemed so peaceful, exauhtion almost won me over. Almost.
I looked around, squinting in the day light, while resuming to catching my breath. I didn't see any movement, so I was alone, like I liked to be. It gave me a moment to collect thoughts. Thoughts that I try to outrun, but never seem to be able to. I wonder when I will though, the question always gave me hope. To be free of this haunting curse. I sighed, looking down at my blackened pain, memories washing over my vision. But with a quick set of blinks, they vanished, floating to the dark corners of my mind where I liked to keep them.
Soon I would have to venture on to find food, as the gnawing feeling had begun in my tummy a long while since I was running. I scanned the field, listening and looking for movement. Nothing appeared to be a live except the plants. I guess I'll have to journey on, to what seemed like a small valley or mountain. It would probably have enough prey to fill me for a few nights, before I would most likely come upon another band of rouges that would take me in, for I was to them a 'young in need of care taking', like I couldn't take care of myself. I fended for myself, but I used them as protection. They aren't, and I don't think ever will be, as smart as they think they are. Stupid rouges.
“Its just I don’t know any other feelings.”