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Winterpath
- November 30, 2012, 02:47:43 PM
Snakecharmer turned away. "Really?"
snowsong1
- November 30, 2012, 03:23:31 PM
Brokenheart nodded silently
Winterpath
- November 30, 2012, 05:54:44 PM
Snakecharmer looked at her, eyes cold but filled with pain. "Let's go over this again. Why did you leave? And don't say it's because I cheated on you. When you were there, no others caught my eye at all. None of them compared to you and I was always faithful. You're the one that left. You're the one that went to a new Clan. You're the one that made me step down. You're the one that put me in such a state I couldn't lead this Clan. You're the one that I told I would love 'til the end, then left without even a goodbye. You're the one that broke me."
snowsong1
- November 30, 2012, 06:03:17 PM
Brokenheart sighed "I left because...I-I thought you didn't love me. Maybe I shouldn't have bothered coming. I didn't mean to break you but I thought you had cheated and that's why I changed my named to Brokenheart" She explained "That's why. But you broke me too" She turned away
Winterpath
- November 30, 2012, 06:26:24 PM
He felt his heart break even more as she spoke. Every word filled him with more and more pain - that type that no herbs can heal. But when it came to him and Echobreeze, he doubted time would heal it either. Or maybe he was just too far gone already. His heart too cracked to be patched up again. His life so confused and messed up that it could never be put right. Or maybe he was just a lovesick fool that had lost it all.
He hated to look at himself in any of those ways, but they all described him perfectly. He'd given his everything to her and she'd took it willingly, giving back. And then she left. Even if she did think he was cheating, why did she just leave? Why not talk to him, give him a chance to explain it was a misunderstanding? He didn't blame her for it, of course not - he blamed himself more than anything. He'd done nothing wrong, but guilt still washed over him whenever he considered the possibilities. It was hard to imagine what was going on in her head, mostly because he didn't even know what was happening in his any more.
He'd lost everything because of her, he knew that much. His leadership, his trusting nature, his happiness, his heart. It didn't seem fair. Again, he'd never blame her. Whether she still felt for him or not, he was still blindly in love with her. He'd still listen to every word she said and consider it, even if it mentioned his destruction. But he knew that they could never be the same now, even if she did come back. Because, though he would listen and think about it, he would no longer immediately follow along, no longer believe everything that came out of her mouth. No longer give her everything he had, just to see it washed away like pebbles on the shore of the lake.
Not just because he didn't trust her as much now, and not because he wanted to prove anything. Simply because he didn't want to be hurt any further. He didn't want to lose the remaining pieces of his fragile heart. Didn't want to say goodbye forever to the fun-loving nature he used to possess. But that was already gone, was it not? His depression got worse every day, no matter how much time he spent around those who cared for him. And it didn't help with Mossfire watching his every move, hissing if he did something wrong or slacked off. Truly, he wished he'd done more than just step down. He didn't want a Clan life any more. Too many around you that can burn you to the ground with a few simple words.
He'd never been gullible, except with Echobreeze. That's how she'd hurt him so bad, by luring him in then disappearing without a trace. That's what really got him. He'd thought she was lost - or worse, dead. He'd cried every night for her absence, longed for her sweet touch. He'd seen her face every time he closed his eyes, smelt her every time he breathed in. And that had been painful. He'd thought he'd never see her again, so every vision of her, every illusion, they all stung worse than stinging nettles and bees put together. They'd hurt him in a way that he'd never known before, a way that he'd never wanted and never wished for. A way that almost made his heart stop.
Not in that good way. Not that way he used to get all the time, where she'd look at him and he could hardly breathe, or when she talked and he got all nervous and clumsy. But instead in the way that he knew she wasn't coming back, for he understood the finality of death by now. When he'd first seen her back on FeatherClan territory, he'd been shocked, surprised, delighted. Until he found out she'd changed her name, gone to a new Clan, brought with her a Clanmate that was not his as well. And that... that made him feel like old dirt. It made him feel dizzy with horror, stupid as a newborn kit. After all that he'd done for her, she'd betrayed him and the Clan beyond belief.
And that hurt.
snowsong1
- November 30, 2012, 06:33:43 PM
Brokenheart felt guilt build up inside of her, "I-I realise now that I made the wrong choice" She admitted "I should've talked to you about it but...I-I was scared of my heart breaking" Her voice cracked and tears formed in her eyes. "I wish I was braver than that but I'm not. I was a fool to leave without knowing fully whether you had or not, and deep down...I knew you hadn't. B-but I was too scared. I hate myself for it. But I was too scared of getting hurt. And I never stopped loving you or our kits. But I know you love someone else now" tears slid down her cheeks. "And I know I don't deserve it but...I beg of you...Please, Even if you cannot look at me again,E-even if you no longer love me...Please forgive me for everything I have done to cause you so much trouble and pain to try and save my feeble heart" Slowered her head, tail drooping, her heart pounded, she was fearful of what his answer would be
Winterpath
- November 30, 2012, 06:37:05 PM
{Marking as unread for tomorrow - all my muse has been drained. xP I promise an answer of at least 500 words when I've regained some energy/muse/creativity.}
snowsong1
- November 30, 2012, 06:41:05 PM
{You can do short-posts if you want, I don't mind! }
Winterpath
- December 02, 2012, 12:48:49 PM
{Very sorry for the delay. No time for a 500-worder I'm afraid.}
Snakecharmer felt tired above anything, but there was something else there too. That was why he used his tail to gently tilt her head up so that she was looking in his eyes.
"Echobreeze, I'll love you until the stars stop shining. I want to be with you more than anything. Just know that if we try and do this again, there will always be a wall between us. I still love you more than life, but we can never be the same again."
snowsong1
- December 02, 2012, 01:04:18 PM
Brokenheart nodded "I see, well, Snakecharmer, I wish you all the best" She mewed and began to pad away
Winterpath
- December 02, 2012, 01:38:46 PM
Snakecharmer felt a tear roll down his cheek, followed by a few more.
"Where are you going?"
snowsong1
- December 02, 2012, 01:43:29 PM
"Well, to Thornclan, I understand now. We can never be together because of the wall and it'll always be there. No matter what we do nothing will be right. I'll come and visit Milkypaw." A tear rolled down Brokenhearts cheek
Winterpath
- December 02, 2012, 04:00:20 PM
He just felt cold, nothing but that. Pure freezing cold. It hurt so much - his heart. Even though he knew she was right, that they were both right, he still didn't want to say goodbye yet. Why had he not anticipated it? Because he was a fool for her, even now. How could he be so blind, so stupid. His voice cracked when he next spoke.
"I don't want you to go." He meant it, knew it. "I don't want to say goodbye. Not... not again. I can't go on without you, Echobreeze." There were tears streaming down his face, burning his eyes. They ran over his lips, and he winced at the horrid saltiness. "I'll die without you, I'm certain. What do I have to live for if you're gone?" Was that true? He didn't know any more, didn't even care. All he wanted was Echobreeze, regardless of anything else. He refused to call her 'Brokenheart', because he never meant to hurt her, never.
snowsong1
- December 02, 2012, 04:02:41 PM
"Snakecharmer, I don't want to live without you either but.. you said it yourself, didn't you? There will always be the wall between us" Brokenheart was crying also, her voice shaky. "I'm changing my name back to Echobreeze" She told him
Winterpath
- December 02, 2012, 04:05:29 PM
Trembling, he closed his eyes and turned away, just so that he couldn't see the pain in her eyes. He hated the thought of her leaving, but knew her mind was made up.
"C-come visit me sometime, 'kay?" He choked out.
snowsong1
- December 02, 2012, 04:10:35 PM
"I promise I will Snakecharmer, Please know, I will always love you and no-one else, And no matter what, My heart is always with you. And who knows, maybe someday that wall will disolve, who knows what the future will bring" Echobreeze forced a smile though her heart broke even more with each word, and the truth tortured her very soul
Winterpath
- December 03, 2012, 02:47:46 PM
It burnt him, the very thought of her leaving. But her words mingled hope and light within his cold, dark soul. What he'd give for that wall to be gone now, for her to return to FeatherClan with him... Empty promises, he knew. But who are we if we do not dream? Mere reality would never quite be enough for Snakecharmer, especially not when reality was as cruel as his. Existence was not always wanted, but unfortunately near compulsory, so he'd always told himself to make the most of it, and let nothing ever stand in your way. Those were the words he'd preached to his children, told them to live their life by. Lately he'd been a bad example, living the opposite lifestyle, one filled with misery and regret. But past cannot be changed, so one must look to the future if they ever wish to survive in this world.
So he swallowed, preparing himself for the darkness ahead, whispering those words in his head as he did so. Though he would always love Echobreeze, and his heart would always be hers, he knew that he must hold his head high, not let anything bring him down ever again. He'd start by claiming back his leadership, his beloved Clan. He'd force Dragoncall to step down if it was the last thing he did, for the red tom was not a good leader, not a caring one. Not what Snakecharmer had used to see himself as, to see Rainstar as.
Turning back to Echobreeze, he knew his heart was broken. He knew that it would not be fixed any time soon, if ever. He knew that she was leaving and may never come back. He knew that life would be painful for a long time after this. But in time, it would begin to get better, begin to return to normal. One day he'd find a way of living without Echobreeze, getting on with life instead of hating it. He would return to living each moment like it was your last, living in the present. That was what he had based his life upon, grown up with, and what he had lost for so long. Now he only wished to find it again.
So yes, life brings storm clouds your way, and yes, sometimes they scorch your fur more than the last time. But that storm will eventually cease to make room for the sunshine. The clouds would part and the birds would sing, bringing new hope and happiness to those that wished for it. But Snakecharmer had always known something, from the moment he'd set eyes upon this world. A simple phrase, not too long, not too short. Something he would have to remember through the times ahead, until he saw Echobreeze again. Another thing to tell his daughter, to tell his Clan, to tell all those that need to hear it. Something that would change his life for the better.
Life is not about waiting for the storm to pass - it's about learning to dance in the rain.
{510 words. I'm so proud. xD - a lovely closer for Snakecharmer, so I'll be ending my part in the thread there if that's okay with you.}
snowsong1
- December 03, 2012, 03:11:53 PM
{Aww, sooo cute.} Echobreeze smiled "I promise I will try my hardest to break the wall, maybe you can start trying too. Then we can meet in the middle. I-I think I might move back to Featherclan soon, because Milkypaw...She means the world to me, just as you do." She admitted. " I will always try to destroy the wall. But I can't do it alone, so, for now, we'll start again, we'll start as friends. But Snakecharmer, if you ever need anything. Or if you ever need anyone to talk to about absolutely anything, I will always be here. And, If you ever feel down, I'll always be cheering for you. No matter what...Because" It was becoming increasingly hard for her to talk as her throat tightened in pain and grief. "...Because I still love you....And my heart will always be yours. And no-one elses" She smiled at him "I'll be back at some point during this moon, to live out the rest of my life close to you and Milkypaw, because you too are everything to me and everything that ever will be" She told him. "So, until then, this is farewell, but definately not goodbye" She felt an ache of longing inside of her. "So don't think you have gotten rid of me just yet" She teased, finally becoming her old self. {{222 words here! So proud of this}}
Winterpath
- December 03, 2012, 03:27:54 PM
{Beautiful. Counting up posts and unsubscribing now. <3}
snowsong1
- December 03, 2012, 03:30:33 PM
{<3 Okay, I'll lock it now <3}
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